So me as
casual as can be said "Oh Gee I think it's because
I'm putting on weight! Anyway I finally had a check
and heaps of tests taken at my Local G.P's ..He gave
me a letter to take with me for next hospital
appointment. That's when all hell broke loose I
ended up collapsing right then and there.
The Specialist with NO holding back anything said
you have just handed me your "DEATH SENTENCE" next
I knew I had oxygen mask on me bringing me round.
Well I said you mean I'm dying and So So Bluntly
he said I only give you a few months...So the
wheels started turning right from there they
explained the only thing was that to prolong my
life for a year or more would be I would have to
undergo Chemo(Cylophosamide)and Steriods...
and to start it immediately regardless of my
heart meds what ever so within no time I was
given an I.V. after much ado finding a vein.
Then the worst thing happens.I'm allergic to
Steriods which they already knew so they whipped
that line out and said we will hope for the best
and when able put you on a small oral dose of
With that they couldn't risk letting me out of
the hospital what with taken off the heart meds
suddenly I had to be under constant care ...
so it was a very harassing night.
For four days I didn't know what was going to happen.
Eventually they said "Well this treatment will have to be
performed for "6 Months". I spent nearly that whole six
months with my head in a basin or toilet being sick...
it was the worst thing that could happen.
Anyway...my heart eased up pumping out of my chest.
Ha-Ha-Ha...I was on 02 for 24/7 ..I was always
active and this to me I would near go stir crazy.
So needless to say word got around and my Natural
Path and one of the Ambulance men started me on
Green Barley and Noni Juice.
I could not eat a hot meal...So after Ten months
my oxygen levels started to rise then they
reduced my 02 ..I have it only when I'm walking
or when I feel puffed...
also I have to have it all night while sleeping
until they do some kind of sleep pattern of tests
on me...my reading 02 level has now come up to 8...
when I was way down to under 5.
I have defied the odds to date.
Anyway...God is the only one who knows when our
time is up....and further more I believe it is all
Natures food's I'm drinking which has helped me.
I go now on the 15th January 2005 for more
restipitory test's to see if I need three more
months of chemo.
I said "NO"... If I'm going to heaven I'll go
laughing rather than have my head continuously in
a toilet basin. ha ha ha !!!
I'm up and about great now I feel it coming on so
I take a puff... I never leave my home without
my cylinder...I didn't want to look like an
oxywelding bloke, so I bought myself a little
shopping jeep I wheel around with my cylinder
and nose job plugged in ...People come up to me
and ask I just say...it's the fashion!
They walk off thinking she has a screw loose. I really
don't care...I live life to the fullest and I get a
laugh from the look on their face.
( Caring people are not ignorant...they see me
without fingers and know I must have some kind of
a problem ) not surmise I smoked myself silly
and it's my own fault
( Laughter has been my medicine for 30 odd years )
and I intend to carry on another 10 years regardless.
I overcome my pain by just saying
"Oh go away your only part of my problem".
No Honestly...My "Pain" is Strong ...But "I" am Stronger.
It's a Big issue and I overcome it by just pretending it's
"No issue" ( laugh ) That's my medicine...
has been for many years and will stay that way .
Never give up! Keep Positive!
Love always Pammy